I haven’t written too much into this blog, but from now on, I plan to spice it up… ;)
Telling the truth, I was realyy depressed in the past months and I didn’t had the feeling that I have to write. The whole school situation just made me sad and I even had the feeling that I’ll give up everything and move back to Hungary…
…and I got them…
It has been a long time ago when I last wrote here, to tell you the truth I had a crisis in my private life. I cannot say that I’m completely over but I try to find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Where I have to start? As I wrote it before, I just feel (felt) that my current studies don’t fit to me and don’t give me the motivation to be better or to take more effort in order to be an IT expert. I had thoose feelings during the whole summer and after the first week of the semester I’ve just decided to take a break. I haven’t given up my study right yet but I don’t go to lectures and I don’t care about any school stuff.
…actually not my closet my life is; it’s time to get rid of my bad habits especially of procrastination. I don’t know what has happened to me in the past 2-3 years but I became extremely lazy and I am simple not able to conentrate on too many things, I just forget important tasks or deadlines. And I waste my time pretty easily. For example today I didn’t do anything but watching 5-6 episodes of the ‘Gilmore Girls’. I don’t even like this TV show, I just had something to do besides lying in my bed.
Now, the time has come to create a system in my life. Before I continue my studies I have to learn everything about time management; I wanna be well-organized, do all my necessary stuff on time and spend my free time on a effective way.
Unfortunately this summer doesn’t have only positive surprises for me: couple of weeks ago I found out that I have milk protein allergy. What does it mean? I basically cannot eat anything what contains any dairy, for example cheese and chocolate. (I used to to be a chocolate-addict.) It is a really rare illnes if you are an adult…It doesn’t mean lactose intolerance - it is more serious cause lactose-free stuff contain milk protein too. Now it is time to consume alternative products like soy, rice or oakmilk. For me it’s a huge challange, I was a fan of all milk products, I just loved milk, yoghurt, cheese…everything.
I think that the worst part is that if I’m invited somewhere to eat I have to tell to the hosts, that sorry I cannot eat that and that. And it’s a horrible feelingg to admit that you have kinda disease; I don’t want to mean an extra burden to others. :/ The whole situation looks like that I’m similar to someone who suffers from anorexia. But if I could I would eat everything…
I have ever hated to do groceries and now all the minutes what I spend in the store are like nightmares. I always have to read what a product consists of and I find almost every day something new what contains any milk. Staring the cheese and chocolate shelves are killing me softly. And the price of these non-milk products are damn high..Soy milk and joghurt aren’t delicious at all, rice milk doesn’t taste good in caffee, but hopefully I will enjoy them later..
This allergy has a positive side too! After long months I feel myself healthy again! In April I was very ill and after it I felt that I couldn’t heal completely, I had serious pain in my stomach, my digestion didn’t function well, I felt myself all the time tired and depressed. I didn’t have energy enough and I was wonder why. In the past weeks I haven’t consume any dairy and I just feel much better, I feel power in my body again. :) And hopefully with avoiding all he milk products it will be better and better. I try to concentrate on my health and to create new nutrition habits, to find great alternative solutions and recipes. I have been healthy for 25 years - now it’s time to deal with an illnes. A new way of life has just came but I’ll be strong enough and live like I didn’t have any problem at all.
Have you ever felt that you immediately need some changes however your life is pretty okay?
I really don’t have anything to complain about but I feel that something is missing…How else can dream about a 5 weeks paid holiday and about living in a beautiful area completely alone and about doing nothing anything but having fun?! Yeah, in this manner I am the lucky one. But I kinda consider my life empty; I am looking for challenges or goals but I’m somehow lost.
The so-called Juhannus is the Midsummer-festival and it has a great tradition in Scandinavia. In Finland it basically means the beginning of the summer holiday - a lot of people have a long vacation until August.
Juhannus is a 3-days celebration almost everyone travels to the countryside, Helsinki seems to be so empty during these days. People do huge bonefires and other outdoor stuffs like barbecue. And of course it is “just an occasion to get drunk” for many Finns. :D
I didn’t do anything special, but I had a great time with my Hungarian friends. My host-family wen on holiday on wednesday and they spend the whole summer in their cottage in Middle-Finland so I am on vacation unti Mid-August, yeaaah. :D We had a small party and drunk a lot. :D I don’t wanna describe any details - I guess all the stories are funny just for us :) I think we behaved like real Finns..:D
It was so strange to wakeup today, the house is so empty without the kids. And I’m kinda sad that I couldn’t find a summer job; I dunno what I will do unil my host-family comes back…I wanna finally learn Finnish properly and it would be nice to loose some weight. =) Hopefully I won’t spend these weeks with watching tv-series…:D
As I mentioned I’m not the biggest fan of my current university and if I had a chance I would change…Is the Finnish education as good as its reputation says?
I think that all the schools have high standarsd and niveau -from pre-schools to universities- exept of the so-called university of applied sciences…ofc only they offer English degree programs, so I didn’t have any other opportunity than choosing something there. I am the master of bad decisions, so I succeeded to apply to a program what I don’t enjoy at all.